Time Keeps on Ticking
So another couple of weeks go by. I've been extremely busy and distracted lately. See, fall is my favorite time of year. My wife and I make an annual trek down to Texas A&M for a ball game. We just got back from the OU game down there. Maybe I'll get a picture or two up from that. The weekend before, I was in the Terlingua, TX area camping with family. I have a few pics of that also.
To be honest, my spiritual walk hasn't been steady lately. I struggle to pray, haven't opened a bible in a while, and certainly haven't been to church in several weeks. It's hard sometimes.
But I can rest in the Lord and have been. I keep my faith in Him and His mercy. There are somethings my mind has been wrestling lately. I struggle with the idea that God is in control of all. I don't question that He is but I don't understand His reasoning for doing what He does. Let me see if I can explain myself.
Sometimes, a person gets miraculously rescued from some life or death situation. Perhaps an agent of God foils a robbery or something similar. We all say "praise God." But why would God choose to save one particular person over others who might be in the same situation and end up dead? I know I am nothing and shouldn't question God, but I still wonder.
Someone once told me that God weaves a big picture and we only see a portion of the backside. You know the side where all the thread is going every-which-way. I guess I can accept that. But still, don't you wonder?
Some say all these increasing earthquakes and hurricanes and Mt St Helens are warnings from God. I simply see people dying. I guess death belongs to God as life does. It doesn't always make sense to me though. We praise God for being all merciful and loving and caring, but yet lay the deaths and sorrow due to nature on His hands. Sometimes unwittingly.
I don't understand. I don't think I ever will. I do have faith and I hold on to my faith like crazy. I trust God to do what's fair and just. Sometimes I think this is what Christianity is all about.
More later,
In Christ,
Cory
posted by MC Hendrick | 1:31 PM
3 Comments:
I think trusting God is a huge part of being Christian. It doesn't come easy!
I think everyone has had these thoughts. There is mystery with God - "we see through a glass darkly". What i do know is He is Sovereign and life is better with Him than without. Immanuel - God with us. That's where I am up to with it. As for praying - brother just chat to Him - just talk to Him. Tell Him about the movie you enjoyed, how you enjoyed the camping trip - He is interested. Hope this is an encouragement. I have been through those "dry" periods too - it helped to just talk to Him conversationally. I even told Him - "I am finding it hard to talk to you". Hope it's OK to say this. I appreciate a good honest post!
Steve, I hear you man. Somwtimes this life feels like a rollercoaster without the safety bar. At times I am confortable and safe and enjoy the view. Other times I'm holding on for dear life.
Catez, you're welcome for the honest post. That's why I but this up. I do need to open myself up more to the relationship you are talking about. He is here for us and wants to talk, I just struggle with it. Thanks for your words.
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